Some saw the Defence Secretary post as a reward for his cautious loyalty to Major during the
1995 leadership challenge of
John Redwood, following Major's "back me or sack me" resignation as party leader. Many urged Portillo, the "darling of the right"
[11] to run against Major. He declined to enter the first round but planned to challenge Major if the contest went to a second round.
[11] To this end, he set up a potential campaign headquarters with banks of telephone lines. He later admitted that this was an error; "I did not want to oppose [Major], but neither did I want to close the possibility of entering a second ballot if it came to that." Portillo acknowledged that "ambiguity is unattractive"
[12] and his opponents within the party later used Portillo's apparent equivocation as an example of his indecisiveness;
[11] "I appeared happy to wound but afraid to strike: a dishonourable position."
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